February 2019, I received a call no one desires to hear.
“You have triple positive/Her2 positive breast cancer.”
For five years, not only did I have a breast cancer foundation for women called Pink Savvy Inc., I had also served in the cancer community as a chemo companion and prayer partner to others who experienced this.
When I was first diagnosed, my thoughts were exactly:
“Why me? Haven’t I been doing the work?”
”Haven’t I given selflessly of myself to serve others in need and going through this? Why did I need to walk this path?”
All I wanted to do was serve, not be a member of the team in which I was of service to, but breast cancer has now become my reality.
I struggled for two months with this information and didn’t tell a soul besides my husband, sister and one of my closest (my person) friends. It was hard to say the words out loud, but I prayed and proceeded with surgery. I had a partial mastectomy and I’ll have a total hysterectomy and reconstruction before the end of 2019.
This season of life has brought so much clarity; not to take life, love and the people in it for granted. Having a support system is so very important.
My family ROCKS huge!
Don’t sweat the small stuff.
Life is truly a minute-by-minute, hour-by-hour, day-by-day process. Time is valuable. Don’t waste it!
I know for myself that God is definitely a healer. There is no one like him. He gave me a peace that surpasses anything I could understand. Although there may be people around you praying for you, cheering for you and supporting you, this journey is still left up to the person fighting it.
Only God, faith and your will to live can get you through this process. Healing is a process and just as my body has to heal, my mind has to do the same. There are thoughts that linger of it [cancer] returning, but I shift my mind and think about the positive and live for today. There are lasting effects from chemotherapy such as muscle spasms, black toenails and fingernails, deteriorated joints, early menopause, hot flashes, hair loss, etc.
I count it all joy simply because it could have been worse!
